Well of course I was up all flippin night & a lil after 7am I passed out. So wasn't happy bout that. Especially when I woke up at 8am & wasn't even fully awake so back out I went. Woke up at 9am & forced myself out of bed at 9:30. Needed to start my day & take a shower B4 Bellazay woke up.
Never did make it to Babies R Us/Toys R Us & now I guess it's a good thing. Spent time w/my babies. Trying to get Bellazay to roll over on her own. & she did yay lol. She's such a laid back baby that she does her own thing. But her walker should be here next week so she'll love that. Hopefully by the time she's 8mos she'll B walking:). She's already way ahead for her age. She was actually born a mo earlier & considered a preemie. Even tho 6lbs 9oz is big ass preemie. She had surgery when she was only 3wks old. So being on her tummy she couldn't do until she was almost 3mos & by then she hated it. But mommy still makes her. And now she plays, rolls, & scoots. LOL
Well anyway. Spent 2hrs organizing & cleaning Bonez's room. Looks awesome again & he's listening to mommy & picking up after himself. Such a great son I have. I think he's liking having more responsibilities While all doing this Bellazay played in her jumper then ate lunch. Yes momma had to take a break to feed the Princess:) She cracks me up. Eventually she went & sat w/her nana then came back & bounced around in her jumper again lol. While mommy cleaned the house & started laundry. Eventually she took a nap when daddy came home.
Tacoma put the pool up when he came home:). My uncle Lonnie & aunt Colleen gave us a pool. & a big one:). It's a lil smaller then the one we just got that is going in storage until next year. But we're not complaining. It's a pool & it's been hot as hell out so heck yeah:)
Well now it's 11:27pm. I wasn't feeling so great this evening. Totally over ate. So I slept & finally got rid of my tummy ache. Guess I was to blunt earlier today & upset certain people. Which was not my intentions. B could of said hey that was way mean or hey that hurt my feelings. I could of reread what we were IMing back & forth & realized that what I had said didn't come out right. Which it didn't. But after 6yrs she should know me better & know exactly what I ment. But honestly I think she's been looking (yet again) for a reason to not talk to me or be friends. If that's what she would like all she has to do is say that & not go looking for a fight.
But instead she blocks me from everything & says nothing. I text her & said something. She then let me know why. I guess I upset & hurt her boyfriend's feelings & that I did feel really bad about. I guess I hurt hers to & this she didn't tell me & I feel bad about that also. I wasn't trying to hurt either of them. Her BF doesn't know me very well so of course he's not going to understand anything but still it's bad if you cause pain to someone you barely talk to. He did say something to me on my Business FB which I was not happy about. He could of wrote me. Not put such disrespecting words on a Business site. That is immature & looking for drama. I will not do the drama bit. But I know him well enough that I could tell I really upset him. So I did write him back in a message & explained to him what I ment. I also told him if he doesn't want to talk to me at all that I do understand.
He hasn't written back yet & may or may not & that's okay. He's busy right now doing some guy stuff so I don't expect him to jump on FB to see what I said. I just told B to tell him that I did write back & I left it at that. She had a very long day & was trying to rest.
I'm not upset about any of this. If we all stop talking to each other then we do. Really I think that is what she wants. So that's okay with me. I don't think she has realized I am not the same person I was over a year ago. I don't know how many times I've told her that I will not fight with her. If something is bothering her then she needs to just say it. In all honesty I don't always realize what I have said. & if I do at that time then of course I will apologize right away & if I don't & someone says something then yes I will apologize. I am an adult & have no problem what so ever in admitting I was wrong. You know when you have grown when you can admit to your faults & wrong doings.
But like I've said before I am a very honest; blunt person. I usually always say what's on my mind. I have only one other friend that is exactly like me. So I guess being the way I am doesn't bother me. But of course because I speak my mind people like to say I'm "judging" them. How is it judging when I'm saying exactly what you just told me? I don't think allot of people realize what they tell me & then when I repeat something they have said themselves they get all shocked & like OMG I can't believe she said that. Really?!?! My memory is getting better on conversations I have with people. & this isn't all directed towards B. I'm talking about allot of people in general. B knows me so really she shouldn't be shocked by something I have said or say. But I wish she'd be more honest with me. She knows I won't go off on her. I'll stop & think about what she is saying & may agree or not agree with her. We've always been able to be straight out honest with each other & now I'm wondering when the hell all that when flying out the window. IDK but I do have to respect her decisions. Even if I don't always agree. So friendship ends it ends. Life still goes on. It doesn't stop & I learned that years ago.
I'll be happy when I leave this place & start new in a different state or town :) My hubby & babies YAY :D & well a cat & dog eventually lol.
Wow it's after midnight. I should head to bed. It was a very productive day. Didn't end to great. But oh well. Movies & time w/just my hubby tomorrow YAY :) Way over due.
Good night to my readers.
~Sparrow~
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