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I'll just sit here and fade into the background.
Watching the world go 'round.
People living and passing me by.
No one sees me.
It's like I'm not even alive.
Might as well not be.
Feel so dead inside.
Made a mistake that cost me my heart.
Why run from the one you love?
Just to end up with a broken heart.

We always seem to run from what's true.
We run from what makes us happy.
Never makes sense to live in misery.
Life never makes sense.
Things happen for a reason.
God has a plan.
May not make sense at the time.
You may feel like life is unfair and happiness isn't an option.
Just remember your right where your meant to be.
Life doesn't always make sense.
But one day you'll thank god for your unanswered prayers.

I stop and breath in this cold night air.
Thanking god for putting me here.
Life is good even with a broken heart.
I know I'll be alright.
Stronger than I have ever been.
Keep getting knocked down.
Back up I jump.
Tears in my eyes and a smile upon my face.
Life you'll have to hit a lot harder to keep me down.

One day love will enter my life.
I won't see him coming nor realize he's who God meant for me.
I just know I'll thank god for taking away all the pain.
Teaching me all he has and bringing into my life the heart that is meant to love me.
Until then I will live one day at a time.
Enjoying every minute of my life.

~Kalí Lynn
All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez-Snowhawk and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2013

My Forever, After

Fate brought us together,
Destiny showed us the way.
The Future is what we have together.
I loved you the moment I saw you,
The first time I heard your voice,
Felt your lips upon mines,
Felt your touch.
For the rest of my life your the only man I want to kiss,
The only man's touch I want to feel.
And the only man I want to grow old with & see every waking day of my life.
I'm beyond lucky to have you by my side.

Today is a gift,
Tomorrow isn't promised.
But I'm gonna promise to love you til my very last breath.
I didn't fall in love with you.
My heart knew the moment you entered my life you were the one meant for me.
When two souls are meant to become as one.
They search the earth until they find each other.
Our souls knew what we had no clue of.
We didn't even try & fight what they told us.
All because we just knew....
You were meant for me and I was meant for you.

You're my one love of a lifetime.
I knew from the bottom of my soul,
You're everything I've prayed my life to find.
I knew in my soul your the one meant to heal my shattered heart,
You're the one that'll protect me from harm.
My shoulder to lean on,
My ears to listen when I've had a bad day.
The one to make me smile when I don't wanna smile at all.
The one who will be my remedy to every bad day I may have.
You're my happily ever after.
Everything I've ever dreamed of is you.
You're absolutely perfect in every way imaginable to me.
My missing puzzle piece,
My other half.

You sir are the love of my life.
No doubt Love.
You hold the heart that is meant to love me.
And I hold the heart that is meant to love you.
Never letting this go......
You are all I want and everything I need.

~Sparrow
All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2013

Why Me?

So many years spent getting knocked down.
Then turning around & picking myself back up.
Beaten black, bloody, & purple.
Bruised from head to toe.
Tears stream down my face,
While I still stand back up and ask "Is that all you got?!"
Only to get knocked back down.
No use in running away they'll find you anyway.
Year after year wishing the last blow would just end my life.
Praying for God to take me home.
Never was a prayer answered.
Apparently cuz I'm still here.

They say he never gives you more then you can handle.
Well damn he must have faith in my strength for all the hell I've been through.
So tired of the pain and tears.
Just wanna be safe; feel safe.
Have arms that hold me;
Not knock me to the ground.
Words that are kind;
Not words that try so damn hard to tear me down.

I'll never understand why me?
A good woman; with a caring heart.
I must of committed some horrible crime in a past life.
To have to live the life I have lived.
I just keep asking why me?!
Do I not deserve to be loved?
Do I not deserve to feel safe?
Once upon a time I must of never been right.
To have lived day in & out in fear for my own life.

Looking for love in all the wrong places.
Never understanding why they never loved me.
Just want arms that protect me,
Not abuse me.
Lips that kiss & words that heal my broken heart.
I've only dealt with words that slice thru me like a newly sharpened knife.
I'll never understand why me?!
Just looking to finally relax & be safe.
To be able to stop looking behind my back.
Stop with the cold sweats & sleepless nights of being beaten into a pulp.
Is it to much to want to be loved & feel safe in the arms of a man who's only crime is loving me unconditionally?
Just lookin for love, safety, happiness & a life long kind of love.
There's nothing I wouldn't sacrifice for a love like that.
True, real, one in 6 billion kind of love.

~Sparrow

All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2013

Blue Eyed Snake

Out of the blue ignored and shut out.
Locked out and nowhere to go.
Not speaking to me and no answers to the questions swarming in my head.
By the end of the day the truth comes to light.
All along you was playing games.
Cheating on me.
All the while smiling to my face.
Saying mommas ILoveYou.
While all the while you had chick after chick on speed dial.
What the hell?!?!
How could you be so low??
Lie to my face and do me so dirty.
Did nothing but do right by you.
Not a damn thing could you complain about.
But yet it apparently wasn't good enough for you.
Came to realize your a heartless bastard.
All about yourself.
Don't care about the hearts you shatter and the destruction you leave behind.
What kind of man causes such pain??
I know......
Your not a man at all.
With a body of a grown man but a mind of a child.
Filled with nothing but lies.
No conscious at all.
You don't even care about the lives you destroy.
Your like a snake after his prey.
Lurking in the dark waiting for the right time to strike.
Piercing dead blue eyes.
So lifeless behind eyes that do nothing but lie.
Tongue so quick to strike with yet another fib.
Was anything you ever said true?!?!
I'm starting to think it was all a ruse.
Got what you wanted then off to your next victim.
Nothing but a blue eyed snake chasing after his prey.
Leaving nothing but destruction in your path.
Victim after victim hurt and broken all because you lied and never cared about anyone but You; Yourself!!

~Sparrow
All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez-Snowhawk and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2013

Out of the Darkness

Just feeling a little overwhelmed.
Like it's just all to much.
Sometimes never knowing which side is up.
Sometimes you just have to step back and look at the whole picture.
Take a deep breath and remind yourself it's gonna get better.
Without the hard times, stress, and confusion.
You'd never have bouts of clarity, happiness, and joy.
Have to have faith and the strength to Judy pray.
It may be raining now.
But the sun will always shine another day.

Keep love in your heart;
God in your prayers.
Strength I'm your soul;
And peace in your mind.
Not every day can be sunshine and rainbows.
You must first travel the untamed path to find your way out of the darkness.
There's always light no matter how dim.
Just blink a couple times and clear your sight.
You will soon see your way out of the darkness.
Just follow the light.

Always pray for a better tomorrow.
Only you can decide what kind of day you'll have.

~Sparrow 8-7-13

All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez-Snowhawk and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2013

Canvas of Art

Walking down the street.
Or playing with my kids.
They stop and stare.
And all I can think is...
"What the hell ya lookin' at?"
Is it the way I walk?
The beautiful in my face?
Or the way I play with my kids?
Or is it the art upon my skin?
Some may see it as tasteless and unreal.
Ugly and to much.
But all I see is the story upon my body that my ink screams.
Every tat no matter how big or small.
All has a story behind it all.
My life.
My journey.
Family; loved and lost.
What I like.
What makes me who I am.
While you see a mess and distraction of skin.
I see a mural of dreams and stories untold.
This is art upon my skin.
My canvas once was blank.
Now no longer boring and tan.
It's full of colors, symbols, and sketches of art.
Beauty is art.
It's not just the music you hear.
Or the paintings you see.
Cuz see I have music upon my skin; note after note.
Little paintings to murals inked into my skin.
Forever to keep until the day they lay my body to rest.
So if your going to stop and stare.
Hell take a picture it'll last forever.

Keep your comments to yourself.
Cuz I could careless what you think of me.
This is my life,
My body,
My canvas God gave me.
For if you got a problem with it turn the other cheek.
Or stand there and watch me enjoy the life I keep.

Those who stop and judge are to busy standing still.
While the ones they watch are living every moment of life.
You can watch and talk.
Or go and live your life.
As for me.
I'm to busy living and enjoying my life.
I love the art upon my canvas God gave me.
Beauty to my soul.
So keep on judging me.
You'll see it doesn't matter to me.
It'll never stop me from being who I am & living the life I'm blessed with every day I wake up and see the sun again.

~Sparrow
All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez-Snowhawk and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2013

Baby Boy

All it takes is hearin his text tone & instantly I'm smiling.
"Good morning baby." =)
Yup I like it.
Sends a pic out of the blue.
Damn baby boy I'm missin' you.
Smilin' so big now I know I look a fool.
But hell baby boy fine & that smile of his.
A 100% genuine.
Texting all day.
Random conversations like...
"Hey baby how's your day?"
Shoot better now that your here.
I know I can't hide the happiness I feel inside when I'm talkin to him.
Cuz I sit there grinning like a lil school girl who just saw her crush walk in.
Smiling all big & eyes all sparkling.
Heart just racing when I know he's thinkin' of me.
Surprise phone calls are even better.
Man that voice mmmmm.
So deep, so sexy, voice so soft & low.
Makes you wanna take off all your clothes.
His laugh amazing.
It's music to my ears.
No matter the weather when he's near forecast always sunny & bright.
Never a cloud up in the sky.
Baby boy always got me on cloud 9.
I swear I'm gonna make him minez.

Counting down the days & waiting for the moments.
The first hug,
The first kiss.
Looking into them beautiful brown eyes & being completely hypnotized.
I already know my heart gonna stop,
I'm gonna forget to breath.
Man what he does to me.
We're on a whole nother level then the rest of the world.
We've created our own little universe.
Never has there been a physical moment between us just yet.
But what we feel is real.
Deep in our hearts & our souls.
We already know it's gonna be til death do us part.
Our dreams we dream together.
Never are they apart.
We know what we want & that's for us to never part.
Love doesn't happen over night.
It takes it's time & grows.
Ours grows every second of every single day.
Never has it dwindled or faded away.
Always growing into something so beautiful that even we can't describe the hold it has.
When it's true & it's real.
It's beautiful & natural and never once do you have to explain how you feel.
You see it in our eyes,
You hear it in our voices.
And once you see us together you'll already know we are meant to be together.

Your lucky to love once in a lifetime so I've heard.
If your lucky to find love once more. Don't be afraid nor walk away.
Let love happen & set your soul free.
Don't ever be afraid to be with the one that completes your heart & your soul.
Who loves you as a whole.
Love is beautiful when you've met your match.
Don't ever let anyone try to control your destiny.
Your future is only in your hands.

~Sparrow
All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez-Snowhawk and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2013

Games & Lies

Time and time again lettin' my guard down.
Listening to words,
Ignoring actions.
I should know better by now.
But a hopeless romantic I am.
Wanting, waiting, thinking there is love out there for me.
Not even lookin' and they find me.
What do I have invisible ink on me?
A glowing sign that says....
Hurt me. Use me. Throw me to the side.??
Does it make them feel like a man to cause someone pain they don't even know?
Or is that it?
Because they don't know you they just don't care.

When you think you got it all figured out and your guard is up.
A smooth talkin' two timin' man comes along.
Makes you smile and feel amazing.
Least do you know they already taken.
Got a girl at home & you just the game they playin'.
Now your stuck not knowing where to begin or where to end.
Stay and keep doin' what your doin'.
Or try yet again with some other man who may or may not run a game on you to?
Are there any real men left?
Is it that hard to be real?
To be faithful to the chic you got?
To really love someone & mean the words comin' out your mouth?
Nowadays it's nuthin' to say baby I love you.
Don't say what you don't mean.
Don't run a game on some chic just cuz your ass is bored at home.
Be a real man & love the woman you have.
The one at home waitin' on you while your runnin' the streets.
The heart is a delicate organ that should not be played with.
The soul is strong but only for so long.
Don't walk into a woman's life knownin' your just gonna play her & run your game.
Stop and think.....
Would you want some man to treat you momma, sister, or daughter like that?
Treat a woman the way you would want a man to treat the women in your family.
It takes more then just words to really love someone.
Actions must follow those words.
So love; really love with all your heart & soul.
Respect the woman that stands by your side through thick and thin.
That's real love & no you won't find it some where else.
Don't go out hurtin' another woman just cuz you can.
You don't know her story or how many times the man before you hurt her.
Love, protect, & cherish what you love.
For one day you may wake up & it'll be gone.
Time flys by,
The clock is forever ticking.
Love unconditionally & without reserve.
Life's to short to play games & live a lie.

~Sparrow
All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez-Snowhawk and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2013

Late Nights

Late at night I try to close my eyes.
Sleep and rest; clear my mind.
Thoughts run wild,
Mind on full speed.
Looks like another night without sleep.
Everything crosses my mind.
And nothing makes sense.
Happy and content.
Life is good.
Only thing missing is a love to hold on to.
Share the good moments & even bad.
Cuddle, laugh, be silly with, have fun.
Not everything can be perfect.
This I know all to well.
But what's so wrong wanting to share my life with someone else?
Love is a beautiful thing.
And when it's right & true.
Nothing can come between the two.
Two hearts,
Two bodies.
Become one soul.
Love fills the empty holes.

Late night thoughts keep me wide awake.
Wish I knew why my mind refuses to rest.
A lil bit of sleep may calm these random moments of thought.
But then again I seldom sleep long.
Wanting someone to hold me tight.
Help me sleep through the night.
Late night wishes on stars unseen.
Certain dreams may never be.
This is life good & bad.
Always appreciate what you have.
Never dwell on what is missing.
For you never know when it'll be found.
And no longer will your life feel incomplete.

~Sparrow
All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez-Snowhawk and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2013

Enough is Enough

Whisky filled veins.
Numb as can be.
The memories still so vivid like it were just yesterday.
*Swing* *Punch* *Throw*
Down I go.
Fighting back the tears and the excruciating pain.
I can't understand why you keep hurting me.
Does it make you feel like a man to knock me down?
To see the tears in my eyes?

How's it make you feel when I get back up?
When I wipe the tears from my eyes and yell "I've had enough!"
Don't tell me your sorry when you're not.
Don't say it won't happen again.
When the next day comes and you strike me yet again.
Enough is enough.
I can't take your kind of love no more.

No longer will I be your punching bag.
No longer will I make excuses for why you do what you do.
Now you my so-called love can watch me walk away.
I never signed up for this.
I deserve better, security, love.

Real men don't strike their women.
They walk away, cool off, and come back to discuss things.
Enough is enough.
Now you can blame yourself for my absence.
You'll miss me but I won't be missin' you.
My life will go on.
While you live with the regrets of your actions.
Knowing you had a good woman and all you could do was abuse her.
You never appreciated what you had.
You became another lesson learned.

The bruises will fade.
The cuts will heal.
But the memory of what you put me through will always be strong.
I'll never go through that again.
I deserve nuthin' but the best.
A real man who loves unconditionally.
And will never strike me.
Enough is enough.
I won't ever settle for less than what I deserve.
I've seen good and I've seen evil.
It's left unseen scars on my heart and soul.
But yet I still believe deep down there is someone out there for me.
Who will love me for me.
No matter what.
Good days and bad always standing by me.
Now that's true love.
I'll never give up believing there's better for me.
I've had allot of wrongs.
But it takes just one right to make all the pain and hurt worth fighting through.

~Sparrow
All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2013

New Kind of Me

The pain is killing me.
The memories haunt me.
I can't cry or be upset.
For this is the path I've chosen.
To let go and move on.
Things weren't good.
Life was stressful and you raised your hand to me.
How could I ever let that go and just move on?
I couldn't get past the jealousy and you always bein' paranoid.
You kept judging me cuz of my past.
You never had no right to do that.
Trying to live and better my life.
Yet every day was a fight.
This is a brand new me and like hell will I let anyone hold me back.
To many years fighting for change.
Change begins within you and with you.
If your not with me your against me.
So get to steppin' out my life.
I don't need your kind of love and all that pain.
I'm a good woman and stronger than ever because of all the pain I've endured.
Trust is earned,
Love comes naturally and unconditionally.
There should never be a price on love.
I won't give up who I am.
Ever...Never..... Not for no one.
I'm a brand new kind of me.
Love me, be with me,
Hate me or against me.
I'm gonna do me and not worry bout you.
This is a new kind of Me.

~Sparrow

All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2013

Late Night...

I close my eyes & in the middle of the night I lay & wonder about my life.
Past, Present, Future.
Can't change the past.
You can only learn & grown.
The present is the here & now.
The future is still waiting to be written.
I constantly worry & wonder if I'm doing the right thing?
If I've made the right choices?
Am I on the right road?
I hate not knowing the answers.

My heart is constantly bleeding,
My soul seems to be in agony.
Tears stream down my face.
All the while I smile.
Smile to hide the pain,
Smile to let you know everything is okay.
I was made tough.
I can take any hit.
You'll never see the scars.
For the ink upon my body hides all my pain.
I just want someone to see my worth.
To see the love I can offer & just love me back.
But nowadays that's way to much to ask.
So gonna close my eyes & dream away.

~Sparrow

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All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2013