Enough is Enough

Whisky filled veins.
Numb as can be.
The memories still so vivid like it were just yesterday.
*Swing* *Punch* *Throw*
Down I go.
Fighting back the tears and the excruciating pain.
I can't understand why you keep hurting me.
Does it make you feel like a man to knock me down?
To see the tears in my eyes?

How's it make you feel when I get back up?
When I wipe the tears from my eyes and yell "I've had enough!"
Don't tell me your sorry when you're not.
Don't say it won't happen again.
When the next day comes and you strike me yet again.
Enough is enough.
I can't take your kind of love no more.

No longer will I be your punching bag.
No longer will I make excuses for why you do what you do.
Now you my so-called love can watch me walk away.
I never signed up for this.
I deserve better, security, love.

Real men don't strike their women.
They walk away, cool off, and come back to discuss things.
Enough is enough.
Now you can blame yourself for my absence.
You'll miss me but I won't be missin' you.
My life will go on.
While you live with the regrets of your actions.
Knowing you had a good woman and all you could do was abuse her.
You never appreciated what you had.
You became another lesson learned.

The bruises will fade.
The cuts will heal.
But the memory of what you put me through will always be strong.
I'll never go through that again.
I deserve nuthin' but the best.
A real man who loves unconditionally.
And will never strike me.
Enough is enough.
I won't ever settle for less than what I deserve.
I've seen good and I've seen evil.
It's left unseen scars on my heart and soul.
But yet I still believe deep down there is someone out there for me.
Who will love me for me.
No matter what.
Good days and bad always standing by me.
Now that's true love.
I'll never give up believing there's better for me.
I've had allot of wrongs.
But it takes just one right to make all the pain and hurt worth fighting through.

~Sparrow
All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2013

New Kind of Me

The pain is killing me.
The memories haunt me.
I can't cry or be upset.
For this is the path I've chosen.
To let go and move on.
Things weren't good.
Life was stressful and you raised your hand to me.
How could I ever let that go and just move on?
I couldn't get past the jealousy and you always bein' paranoid.
You kept judging me cuz of my past.
You never had no right to do that.
Trying to live and better my life.
Yet every day was a fight.
This is a brand new me and like hell will I let anyone hold me back.
To many years fighting for change.
Change begins within you and with you.
If your not with me your against me.
So get to steppin' out my life.
I don't need your kind of love and all that pain.
I'm a good woman and stronger than ever because of all the pain I've endured.
Trust is earned,
Love comes naturally and unconditionally.
There should never be a price on love.
I won't give up who I am.
Ever...Never..... Not for no one.
I'm a brand new kind of me.
Love me, be with me,
Hate me or against me.
I'm gonna do me and not worry bout you.
This is a new kind of Me.

~Sparrow

All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2013

Late Night...

I close my eyes & in the middle of the night I lay & wonder about my life.
Past, Present, Future.
Can't change the past.
You can only learn & grown.
The present is the here & now.
The future is still waiting to be written.
I constantly worry & wonder if I'm doing the right thing?
If I've made the right choices?
Am I on the right road?
I hate not knowing the answers.

My heart is constantly bleeding,
My soul seems to be in agony.
Tears stream down my face.
All the while I smile.
Smile to hide the pain,
Smile to let you know everything is okay.
I was made tough.
I can take any hit.
You'll never see the scars.
For the ink upon my body hides all my pain.
I just want someone to see my worth.
To see the love I can offer & just love me back.
But nowadays that's way to much to ask.
So gonna close my eyes & dream away.

~Sparrow

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All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2013