If You Loved Me

You take it all never giving back.
All I ever wanted was you to love me like you say you do.
I'd take a stray bullet to the heart for you.
I'd walk through the fires of hell for you.
Do you not love me like you say you do?
What I ever do to have you walk away when all I ever wanted was you to love me like you say you do?
I'd climb the highest mountain to get to you.
There's nothing I wouldn't do for you.
I'd give my life to save yours.

My love for you is unconditional.
Unjudging... Just loving you is all I do.
All I ever wanted was your words to speak through your actions for me.
If you loved me like you say you do.
You would never turn your back to me.
There's nothing I wouldn't do for you.
I'd take a stray bullet for you.
Would you do the same for me?
Or would you let me die?
If you loved me like you say.
You wouldn't be able to walk away so easily.

I'm always going to love you.
It's nothing I can stop and walk away from.
Unlike you my love is unconditional and forever always I'll love you and only you.


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All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez-Snowhawk and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2012

Random blogging...

So surfing the Twitter net from my phone during nap time at work & I come across an ex friends Tweets. Crazy how once upon a time I called this chic a friend. 1yr 3mos & 11 days ago she really tweeted that I deserved to lose my daughter. Who the hell says that about someone?! And what does that say about the company she keeps for them other people to not say hey that's not right you shouldn't say that. I'm just in shock by this. Some people are just straight out heartless & don't even deserve to live in my opinion if they can really go around saying such things and believing them.
Really glad she's no longer a so called friend or even in my life. People like that are pure toxic. Their lives suck so bad because they make em suck.
I'm just in shock and very happy to have the friends I have now. Thankfully I stopped being blind and saw the truth.


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With You

With you I feel safe and right where I belong.
I've spent so many years in arms that hurt me and abused me.
You've never raised a hand or even your voice at me.
You've always been the one I would say "I got a friend who would kick your ass if you hurt me."
Ever since I've known you,
You have been my protector,
The one I looked to for advise,
The one I ran to when I wanted to laugh instead of cry.

Your the one that has had my love from day one.
With you I feel at peace.
With you I feel safe which is a place I've never known.
The touch of your hand makes my heart race.
The sound of your voice makes butterflies in my tummy.
Your kiss stops my breath and my heart.
You alone makes my world whole.

With you life just makes sense.
I admire you more then you'll ever know.
I'm amazed by your strength inner and outer.
I love your personality.
Your laugh; your smile.
I love your stories.
I could listen for hours.

I love you so much I wish I could put it all in words.
But there's not enough words in the world, nor are there enough hours in a day to show you.
You mean everything to me.
My heart and soul.
The one I hope to grow old with.

With you I finally feel at home.


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All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez-Snowhawk and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2012

Fragile & Broken

I'm fragile and broken.
I hide behind a mask of happiness.
I smile when I want to cry.
I laugh when I'm screaming inside.
I'm far from perfect.
Only looking to be loved for who I am.

I'm fragile and broken but still standing.
Strong enough to last til the end of time.
No one sees my pain and sorrow.
I run when I'd rather fall.
My heart is a shattered mess.
Missing pieces from past hurt and abuse.
Looking for a love that would rather fix what's broken not break me even more.
Looking for the one that sees past the mask and says "It's okay I'm here never going anywhere."

Needing that one love that will stand by my side in the middle of a hurricane and not runaway.
I'm fragile and broken.
Only looking to be love as I am.

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All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez-Snowhawk and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2012

Let Me

When your life is derailed and you feel like your going no where I'll be right there for you.
When you have no strength to keep going I'll hold you up and give you my strength to help you to keep going on.
I'll be right there with you while your right here with me.
When you feel your heart breaking I'll catch all the shattered pieces and put them back together.
I'll hold you up when you feel like giving up.
I'll be your strength, your shoulder to lean on, your shelter from the rain.

Life is full of struggles and tribulations.
But you gotta walk through the storm before you see the sun shinning through.
Without the chaos of life there would never be harmony.
So when you feel like giving up let me hold you up.
I'll stand by you til the very end.
Nothing could ever keep me from you and holding on to you.

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All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez-Snowhawk and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2012

Today

Today I lied & said I was fine.
Today I smiled when I wanted to cry.
Today I walked out into the blistering cold & asked God to take me home.
Today.....
Today I wanted to die....

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All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez-Snowhawk and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2012

Dreamland

Off to never never land
And down the rabbits hole.
Into the great unknown.
Dream a little dream,
And hope for nightmares to stay at bay.
Fall into slumber and dream your life away.

Wake up in a magical Forrest,
With fairies all around.
They say we'll grant you one wish so don't make a mistake.
Close my eyes and think with all my might.
Please let me have this wish I make tonight.
I wish,
I hope,
I pray,
Forever for his love to stay.
I wish I may; I wish I might.
Please little fairies grant my wish tonight.

Wake up into the sunlight.
Unsure of your night.
Remembering the wish you made once upon a time.
Even though a dream you still wish it comes true.
So you stare at your phone for hours.
When a text comes in and it's from him.
Your wish upon a time comes true.
His love is real and yes he loves you to.

Dream a little dream,
Make a wish into the night.
Hope beyond hope,
For your wish to come to.
For your true love to love you back as much as you love them.

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All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez-Snowhawk and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2012

My Dying Breath

Some day I'm gonna fly far; far away.
Close my eyes and set my spirit free.
I've known to much pain,
My heart barely beats.
I live in fear,
For if I love and open up.
I'll just get hurt once again.

I am far from perfect and believe it or not.
I am only human; with thoughts and a shattered heart.
A soul that hides in the darkest of holes.
Fearing what the world seems to hold.

I sometimes fear that I'm not strong enough.
That the pain will win and I'll just set myself free.
Hang from a tree or lie in a pool of blood.
Fear seems to be stronger then my will to live at times.

I stop and I think...
Am I dumb to hold on and love with all my might?
Or should I just endure what ever life may bring my way?
I question my strength.
I'm not always so strong.

So I dream with all my might and hope for the very best.
I'm just gonna love until my dying breath.

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All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez-Snowhawk and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2012

Only..

I've spent forever loving him.
Most the time from afar.
Only being able to just be his friend at times.
He's the only man I've ever trusted.
Only one who knows me thru and thru.
He's never hit me or put me down like all the rest.
In his arms I feel safe.
His kiss can stop time.
When with him for only a few minutes turns into hours gone by.

I've never felt safe or even myself in any of my relationships but one.
Time and circumstances have made it hard for me to be with him.
Things are finally changing and I'm standing up for myself.
Doing what needs to be done to be happy for my own self.

If you truly love someone don't love them from afar.
Put yourself out there and tell them.
You may be surprised that they love you to.
The future I may not know.
But can only hope.
That one day I will fully and be completely in the arms of the one that holds my heart and has my soul.
The only man I've ever really known and loved.

~Sparrow~
1/2/12


All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez-Snowhawk and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2012

The Pain I've Known

I've spent over a decade loving you.
Heart on the floor;
Soul lost in the dark.
Tear stained cheeks,
And blood shot eyes.

I've known pain I never knew existed until the day you threw me to the side like an unwanted doll.
Back on that dark; dusty shelf waiting for your return.
Only to be short lived.

I've never felt so unwanted or unneeded in all my life.
Until the day you started treating me like an unwanted doll.
You seem to forget I'm human to.
I cry and feel pain.
Just cuz you don't see it or hear my cries.
Doesn't mean I'm not hurting.
I've begun slowly dying inside.
My heart has now become a shattered mess. With missing pieces and stitched all to hell.
My soul full of holes and broken promises.

Some days I had wished you just hit me or call me a name.
That kind of pain I've handled for a life time.
The unknowing and thrown to the side to wait for your return.
Is a pain I've never known until the day you left me in the cold.
You seemed to forget I'm human,
That I have a heart and soul to.
When I've told you I love you and no one else has ever compared.
I don't say it to get your attention for you to come and go as you please.
I say it so you know that my heart is yours.
Shattered and now broken what is left still holds onto hope to some day getting the chance to fully love you.

~Sparrow~
12/31/11 5am


All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez-Snowhawk and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2011