Four Years

Every year that passes it doesn't get easier to deal with.
The tears still come as fast as the first day she passed away.
It never gets easier I just learn to hide the pain well.
The heart ache I feel every day of every week.
Is always there lingering over me.
I look at my oldest child & then my youngest and think how life would of been if Zenzi was never taken from us.
She'd be four now and running around.
Dancing through the house.
Her love for music was incredible.
I've never seen a baby love music as much as her besides her baby sister.

Those who don't know or understand my pain.
Say it'll be fine you'll be okay.
Some days I don't feel fine and some days it's not okay.
You just don't understand how bad I want my daughter back.
It isn't fair that she was taken from a good and loving home.
When other children are abused and neglected in other house holds.
I'll never understand this and I'll always be upset.
Don't tell me to let go and get over it.
I lost my baby,
My little girl.
I'll never be okay with the fact she's not here.
Four years later and it hurts just the same as the day I lost her.
Apart of me is missing and nothing can fill that void.
It'll always be apart of me until I pass on to another life.

::It doesn't seem like its been four years. I miss my daughter and everyday I wonder why and what kind of person she'd be::
RIP Zenzi Teganmarie Elizabeth
Mommy loves you and miss you so much.
Sunrise 12/22/07
Sunset 04/24/08

Forever Love

Forever Love

I love the way his eyes light up when he sees me.
All the love that he feels for me never has to be spoken.
Just look at him and you'll see.
The look in his eyes when he looks at me......
Speak volumes of emotions.
His love is pure devotion.
It isn't lust it's unconditional love.

I've never really believed in love at first sight.
Until the day he came into my life.
With just one look, a smile, and then he spoke.
The sound of his voice is like the theme song to my life.
He took my breath away and woke up my heart.
I've loved before but never like this.
He's like a magnet that my heart could not ignore.
My mind screamed stop you don't even know this man.
My heart yelled back "I know all I need to know."

I've followed my heart ever since and it has yet to lead me astray.
Some may think I'm crazy or even a fool.
But this fool is in love and I never want it to go away.
I've never really imagined a lifetime with someone.
Until I met Tim my absolute perfect love.
Perfect for me in every which way.
The world doesn't need to see it or even understand.
His my man and I'm his woman and that's all anyone needs to know.

Our life's,
Our love.
Only equal one.
Two hearts,
One soul.
Forever entwined.
Never letting go.

~Sparrow~
All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2012

Scars.... My Battle

I don't hide and I don't lie.
My scars are seen by all.
I am not ashamed of the pain I've survived.
My scars show how strong I really am and how I never give up.
I keep fighting cuz its all I got left....
....Is the fight to survive.
I've never backed down from anyone or anything.

The only thing to fear in life is to fear giving up the fight to survive.
Every single person is here for a reason.
To make an impact on someone or something.
Don't ever be afraid to fight and don't ever give up the will to survive.

Don't be ashamed of the scars you carry.
They tell your story of survival and of your own personal war.
We all have a story.
We all have fought to keep on living.
Some lose the fight and some survive.
All that matters is that you never give up and that you never back down from anyone or anything that's trying to bring you down.

Fight for yourself.
Cuz if you don't who else will?
Your scars are proof of survival.
Don't ever be ashamed of what you've been through.
We all are warriors.
Fighting our own battles of war.

Stand tall and never give up.
Show your scars.
Tell your story.
Cuz your still here,
Your Surviving.

~Sparrow

All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2012