Why Me?

So many years spent getting knocked down.
Then turning around & picking myself back up.
Beaten black, bloody, & purple.
Bruised from head to toe.
Tears stream down my face,
While I still stand back up and ask "Is that all you got?!"
Only to get knocked back down.
No use in running away they'll find you anyway.
Year after year wishing the last blow would just end my life.
Praying for God to take me home.
Never was a prayer answered.
Apparently cuz I'm still here.

They say he never gives you more then you can handle.
Well damn he must have faith in my strength for all the hell I've been through.
So tired of the pain and tears.
Just wanna be safe; feel safe.
Have arms that hold me;
Not knock me to the ground.
Words that are kind;
Not words that try so damn hard to tear me down.

I'll never understand why me?
A good woman; with a caring heart.
I must of committed some horrible crime in a past life.
To have to live the life I have lived.
I just keep asking why me?!
Do I not deserve to be loved?
Do I not deserve to feel safe?
Once upon a time I must of never been right.
To have lived day in & out in fear for my own life.

Looking for love in all the wrong places.
Never understanding why they never loved me.
Just want arms that protect me,
Not abuse me.
Lips that kiss & words that heal my broken heart.
I've only dealt with words that slice thru me like a newly sharpened knife.
I'll never understand why me?!
Just looking to finally relax & be safe.
To be able to stop looking behind my back.
Stop with the cold sweats & sleepless nights of being beaten into a pulp.
Is it to much to want to be loved & feel safe in the arms of a man who's only crime is loving me unconditionally?
Just lookin for love, safety, happiness & a life long kind of love.
There's nothing I wouldn't sacrifice for a love like that.
True, real, one in 6 billion kind of love.

~Sparrow

All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2013

Out of the Darkness

Just feeling a little overwhelmed.
Like it's just all to much.
Sometimes never knowing which side is up.
Sometimes you just have to step back and look at the whole picture.
Take a deep breath and remind yourself it's gonna get better.
Without the hard times, stress, and confusion.
You'd never have bouts of clarity, happiness, and joy.
Have to have faith and the strength to Judy pray.
It may be raining now.
But the sun will always shine another day.

Keep love in your heart;
God in your prayers.
Strength I'm your soul;
And peace in your mind.
Not every day can be sunshine and rainbows.
You must first travel the untamed path to find your way out of the darkness.
There's always light no matter how dim.
Just blink a couple times and clear your sight.
You will soon see your way out of the darkness.
Just follow the light.

Always pray for a better tomorrow.
Only you can decide what kind of day you'll have.

~Sparrow 8-7-13

All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez-Snowhawk and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2013

Canvas of Art

Walking down the street.
Or playing with my kids.
They stop and stare.
And all I can think is...
"What the hell ya lookin' at?"
Is it the way I walk?
The beautiful in my face?
Or the way I play with my kids?
Or is it the art upon my skin?
Some may see it as tasteless and unreal.
Ugly and to much.
But all I see is the story upon my body that my ink screams.
Every tat no matter how big or small.
All has a story behind it all.
My life.
My journey.
Family; loved and lost.
What I like.
What makes me who I am.
While you see a mess and distraction of skin.
I see a mural of dreams and stories untold.
This is art upon my skin.
My canvas once was blank.
Now no longer boring and tan.
It's full of colors, symbols, and sketches of art.
Beauty is art.
It's not just the music you hear.
Or the paintings you see.
Cuz see I have music upon my skin; note after note.
Little paintings to murals inked into my skin.
Forever to keep until the day they lay my body to rest.
So if your going to stop and stare.
Hell take a picture it'll last forever.

Keep your comments to yourself.
Cuz I could careless what you think of me.
This is my life,
My body,
My canvas God gave me.
For if you got a problem with it turn the other cheek.
Or stand there and watch me enjoy the life I keep.

Those who stop and judge are to busy standing still.
While the ones they watch are living every moment of life.
You can watch and talk.
Or go and live your life.
As for me.
I'm to busy living and enjoying my life.
I love the art upon my canvas God gave me.
Beauty to my soul.
So keep on judging me.
You'll see it doesn't matter to me.
It'll never stop me from being who I am & living the life I'm blessed with every day I wake up and see the sun again.

~Sparrow
All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez-Snowhawk and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2013

Late Nights

Late at night I try to close my eyes.
Sleep and rest; clear my mind.
Thoughts run wild,
Mind on full speed.
Looks like another night without sleep.
Everything crosses my mind.
And nothing makes sense.
Happy and content.
Life is good.
Only thing missing is a love to hold on to.
Share the good moments & even bad.
Cuddle, laugh, be silly with, have fun.
Not everything can be perfect.
This I know all to well.
But what's so wrong wanting to share my life with someone else?
Love is a beautiful thing.
And when it's right & true.
Nothing can come between the two.
Two hearts,
Two bodies.
Become one soul.
Love fills the empty holes.

Late night thoughts keep me wide awake.
Wish I knew why my mind refuses to rest.
A lil bit of sleep may calm these random moments of thought.
But then again I seldom sleep long.
Wanting someone to hold me tight.
Help me sleep through the night.
Late night wishes on stars unseen.
Certain dreams may never be.
This is life good & bad.
Always appreciate what you have.
Never dwell on what is missing.
For you never know when it'll be found.
And no longer will your life feel incomplete.

~Sparrow
All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez-Snowhawk and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2013

Far from Perfect

I'm fragile and broken.
A fallen angel from above,
Far from perfect.
I make mistakes and only human.
Only wanting to love and be loved back.
Only for just who I am.
Flaws and all.
I'm far from perfect.

These eyes have cried a thousand tears,
This body has felt a million blows and pain.
My heart is no longer whole.
I've known more pain then most.
Yet I'm still here trying to live.
Trying to love and be loved.
Wanting change and a different life.
I've let go and left the past in the past.

But yet no one thinks I haven't changed.
That I'm still the same.
There's a million scars seen and unseen.
I've live and I've learned.
It's all made me who I am today.
Far from perfect but I know I deserve to be loved to.

Soul aching, heart breaking, the unknown taking over.
Fragile and broken yes that's me.
But still standing tall and living with what's left of me.
May not be fully whole.
But I know when the right person comes along.
I'll finally be complete, healed, and freed of my inner misery.
Just wanting someone to love me for me.
Flaws and all.....
....Far from perfect... I'm only me....

~Sparrow~

All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2012

First Step

I feel like my brain is gonna explode.
Nothing is ever easy and if it is.
Somethin' bad bout to happen.
I can feel the storm over head.
I see the clouds.
Lightening clashing all around.
The hail begins.
The hurricane hits.
Close my eyes and begin to cry.
Crouch to the ground.
Screaming for help.
All goes quiet until the tornado touches the ground.
Running for cover there's no where to go.
Holding onto a metal pole.
It's pulling me in,
I scream and cry.
Fighting with all my might.
I fall to the ground and look around.
All is calm but there's chaos all around.
I stand up,
Brush myself off,
And wipe the tears from my eyes.
I take my first step.
The first step of the rest of my life.

~Sparrow~
7/27/12

All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2012

Lies....Everywhere

When the world sleeps I stay awake.
Watching... Wondering what this life has in store for me.
The ups & downs.
Lies upon lies how do I ever trust?
Why is it so hard for people to be real?
Guess they just can't be themselves regardless if you; yourself are real with them.
The trials & tribulations of life forever keep you on guard.
Never knowing what will happen next.
One minute here then next never to be seen again.

The world has become a complete jumble of gadgets & gizmos.
Technology & Internet rule the world of communication like no other.
Making it so much easier to hide; never to really be yourself...leaving many to lie.
Regardless of the changing world.
I don't hide nor do I lie about who I am & where I come from.
I'm gonna be real with you regardless of the situation.
And if need be I'll be brutally honest cuz that's just me.
I wasn't put on this earth to please you nor to fit inside your box.
I am me & that's all I'll ever be.
Don't like something bout me well then get to steppin cuz I don't give a rats ass.

I do as I please, speak how I like.
Dress in what's comfortable to me.
My tats aren't some fad they are my life story for the world to see.
I chose to wear my art literally on my sleeve.
Unlike most I don't need to lie to be me,
I don't need to lie to make friends or get a man.
People like me cuz I'm real & I'm me.
Simply that.... I'm me & that's all I'll ever be.
I don't need to hide behind a web of lies to live my life as I please.

~Sparrow~

All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2012