My Forever, After

Fate brought us together,
Destiny showed us the way.
The Future is what we have together.
I loved you the moment I saw you,
The first time I heard your voice,
Felt your lips upon mines,
Felt your touch.
For the rest of my life your the only man I want to kiss,
The only man's touch I want to feel.
And the only man I want to grow old with & see every waking day of my life.
I'm beyond lucky to have you by my side.

Today is a gift,
Tomorrow isn't promised.
But I'm gonna promise to love you til my very last breath.
I didn't fall in love with you.
My heart knew the moment you entered my life you were the one meant for me.
When two souls are meant to become as one.
They search the earth until they find each other.
Our souls knew what we had no clue of.
We didn't even try & fight what they told us.
All because we just knew....
You were meant for me and I was meant for you.

You're my one love of a lifetime.
I knew from the bottom of my soul,
You're everything I've prayed my life to find.
I knew in my soul your the one meant to heal my shattered heart,
You're the one that'll protect me from harm.
My shoulder to lean on,
My ears to listen when I've had a bad day.
The one to make me smile when I don't wanna smile at all.
The one who will be my remedy to every bad day I may have.
You're my happily ever after.
Everything I've ever dreamed of is you.
You're absolutely perfect in every way imaginable to me.
My missing puzzle piece,
My other half.

You sir are the love of my life.
No doubt Love.
You hold the heart that is meant to love me.
And I hold the heart that is meant to love you.
Never letting this go......
You are all I want and everything I need.

~Sparrow
All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2013

Baby Boy

All it takes is hearin his text tone & instantly I'm smiling.
"Good morning baby." =)
Yup I like it.
Sends a pic out of the blue.
Damn baby boy I'm missin' you.
Smilin' so big now I know I look a fool.
But hell baby boy fine & that smile of his.
A 100% genuine.
Texting all day.
Random conversations like...
"Hey baby how's your day?"
Shoot better now that your here.
I know I can't hide the happiness I feel inside when I'm talkin to him.
Cuz I sit there grinning like a lil school girl who just saw her crush walk in.
Smiling all big & eyes all sparkling.
Heart just racing when I know he's thinkin' of me.
Surprise phone calls are even better.
Man that voice mmmmm.
So deep, so sexy, voice so soft & low.
Makes you wanna take off all your clothes.
His laugh amazing.
It's music to my ears.
No matter the weather when he's near forecast always sunny & bright.
Never a cloud up in the sky.
Baby boy always got me on cloud 9.
I swear I'm gonna make him minez.

Counting down the days & waiting for the moments.
The first hug,
The first kiss.
Looking into them beautiful brown eyes & being completely hypnotized.
I already know my heart gonna stop,
I'm gonna forget to breath.
Man what he does to me.
We're on a whole nother level then the rest of the world.
We've created our own little universe.
Never has there been a physical moment between us just yet.
But what we feel is real.
Deep in our hearts & our souls.
We already know it's gonna be til death do us part.
Our dreams we dream together.
Never are they apart.
We know what we want & that's for us to never part.
Love doesn't happen over night.
It takes it's time & grows.
Ours grows every second of every single day.
Never has it dwindled or faded away.
Always growing into something so beautiful that even we can't describe the hold it has.
When it's true & it's real.
It's beautiful & natural and never once do you have to explain how you feel.
You see it in our eyes,
You hear it in our voices.
And once you see us together you'll already know we are meant to be together.

Your lucky to love once in a lifetime so I've heard.
If your lucky to find love once more. Don't be afraid nor walk away.
Let love happen & set your soul free.
Don't ever be afraid to be with the one that completes your heart & your soul.
Who loves you as a whole.
Love is beautiful when you've met your match.
Don't ever let anyone try to control your destiny.
Your future is only in your hands.

~Sparrow
All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez-Snowhawk and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2013

Games & Lies

Time and time again lettin' my guard down.
Listening to words,
Ignoring actions.
I should know better by now.
But a hopeless romantic I am.
Wanting, waiting, thinking there is love out there for me.
Not even lookin' and they find me.
What do I have invisible ink on me?
A glowing sign that says....
Hurt me. Use me. Throw me to the side.??
Does it make them feel like a man to cause someone pain they don't even know?
Or is that it?
Because they don't know you they just don't care.

When you think you got it all figured out and your guard is up.
A smooth talkin' two timin' man comes along.
Makes you smile and feel amazing.
Least do you know they already taken.
Got a girl at home & you just the game they playin'.
Now your stuck not knowing where to begin or where to end.
Stay and keep doin' what your doin'.
Or try yet again with some other man who may or may not run a game on you to?
Are there any real men left?
Is it that hard to be real?
To be faithful to the chic you got?
To really love someone & mean the words comin' out your mouth?
Nowadays it's nuthin' to say baby I love you.
Don't say what you don't mean.
Don't run a game on some chic just cuz your ass is bored at home.
Be a real man & love the woman you have.
The one at home waitin' on you while your runnin' the streets.
The heart is a delicate organ that should not be played with.
The soul is strong but only for so long.
Don't walk into a woman's life knownin' your just gonna play her & run your game.
Stop and think.....
Would you want some man to treat you momma, sister, or daughter like that?
Treat a woman the way you would want a man to treat the women in your family.
It takes more then just words to really love someone.
Actions must follow those words.
So love; really love with all your heart & soul.
Respect the woman that stands by your side through thick and thin.
That's real love & no you won't find it some where else.
Don't go out hurtin' another woman just cuz you can.
You don't know her story or how many times the man before you hurt her.
Love, protect, & cherish what you love.
For one day you may wake up & it'll be gone.
Time flys by,
The clock is forever ticking.
Love unconditionally & without reserve.
Life's to short to play games & live a lie.

~Sparrow
All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez-Snowhawk and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2013

Late Nights

Late at night I try to close my eyes.
Sleep and rest; clear my mind.
Thoughts run wild,
Mind on full speed.
Looks like another night without sleep.
Everything crosses my mind.
And nothing makes sense.
Happy and content.
Life is good.
Only thing missing is a love to hold on to.
Share the good moments & even bad.
Cuddle, laugh, be silly with, have fun.
Not everything can be perfect.
This I know all to well.
But what's so wrong wanting to share my life with someone else?
Love is a beautiful thing.
And when it's right & true.
Nothing can come between the two.
Two hearts,
Two bodies.
Become one soul.
Love fills the empty holes.

Late night thoughts keep me wide awake.
Wish I knew why my mind refuses to rest.
A lil bit of sleep may calm these random moments of thought.
But then again I seldom sleep long.
Wanting someone to hold me tight.
Help me sleep through the night.
Late night wishes on stars unseen.
Certain dreams may never be.
This is life good & bad.
Always appreciate what you have.
Never dwell on what is missing.
For you never know when it'll be found.
And no longer will your life feel incomplete.

~Sparrow
All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez-Snowhawk and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2013

Enough is Enough

Whisky filled veins.
Numb as can be.
The memories still so vivid like it were just yesterday.
*Swing* *Punch* *Throw*
Down I go.
Fighting back the tears and the excruciating pain.
I can't understand why you keep hurting me.
Does it make you feel like a man to knock me down?
To see the tears in my eyes?

How's it make you feel when I get back up?
When I wipe the tears from my eyes and yell "I've had enough!"
Don't tell me your sorry when you're not.
Don't say it won't happen again.
When the next day comes and you strike me yet again.
Enough is enough.
I can't take your kind of love no more.

No longer will I be your punching bag.
No longer will I make excuses for why you do what you do.
Now you my so-called love can watch me walk away.
I never signed up for this.
I deserve better, security, love.

Real men don't strike their women.
They walk away, cool off, and come back to discuss things.
Enough is enough.
Now you can blame yourself for my absence.
You'll miss me but I won't be missin' you.
My life will go on.
While you live with the regrets of your actions.
Knowing you had a good woman and all you could do was abuse her.
You never appreciated what you had.
You became another lesson learned.

The bruises will fade.
The cuts will heal.
But the memory of what you put me through will always be strong.
I'll never go through that again.
I deserve nuthin' but the best.
A real man who loves unconditionally.
And will never strike me.
Enough is enough.
I won't ever settle for less than what I deserve.
I've seen good and I've seen evil.
It's left unseen scars on my heart and soul.
But yet I still believe deep down there is someone out there for me.
Who will love me for me.
No matter what.
Good days and bad always standing by me.
Now that's true love.
I'll never give up believing there's better for me.
I've had allot of wrongs.
But it takes just one right to make all the pain and hurt worth fighting through.

~Sparrow
All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2013

New Kind of Me

The pain is killing me.
The memories haunt me.
I can't cry or be upset.
For this is the path I've chosen.
To let go and move on.
Things weren't good.
Life was stressful and you raised your hand to me.
How could I ever let that go and just move on?
I couldn't get past the jealousy and you always bein' paranoid.
You kept judging me cuz of my past.
You never had no right to do that.
Trying to live and better my life.
Yet every day was a fight.
This is a brand new me and like hell will I let anyone hold me back.
To many years fighting for change.
Change begins within you and with you.
If your not with me your against me.
So get to steppin' out my life.
I don't need your kind of love and all that pain.
I'm a good woman and stronger than ever because of all the pain I've endured.
Trust is earned,
Love comes naturally and unconditionally.
There should never be a price on love.
I won't give up who I am.
Ever...Never..... Not for no one.
I'm a brand new kind of me.
Love me, be with me,
Hate me or against me.
I'm gonna do me and not worry bout you.
This is a new kind of Me.

~Sparrow

All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2013

Take Care

What do you do when your damaged & broken?
And it feels like your heart is about to explode?
Your chest becomes heavy,
The tears fall like rain.
Can't catch your breath.
For the pain of your heart breaking is to much to bear.
You scream in agony.
Pray for the pain to go away.
Wish for the memories to fade.
You want so bad to go back to yesterday.
When all was good & not so sad.
You go over & over again in your head.
All the words he ever said.
Was it real?
Were they true?
Maybe it was all a lie & he never really loved you.
For if he did he wouldn't be able to just walk away.
He'd stop & fight & beg with all his might.
For you to stay; beg never to leave.
But he didn't.
All he said was Take Care.

Take care?
Okay..... I will.
I'll take care of this broken heart.
The words you lied.
Try to erase your memory.
Don't even want to remember yesterday.
You made me care,
You made me fall.
You caught me for a moment.
Then let me fall to the ground.
Got me feelin' like I'm in the depths of hell.
Once upon a time on cloud 9.
Only took a few words to fall from heaven.
Guess I wasn't your angel,
Guess you didn't change.
Nothing but lies.
I hate your face.

All the I love you's,
I miss you's,
I need you,
Your my life & you complete me.
If all were so true now how do you feel?
Do you feel like a part of you is missing?
Does your heart bleed as much as mine?
Do you lay awake missing me?
The answer to all these questions is NO!
No you don't miss me,
No your heart doesn't bleed,
And hell no do you feel like a part of you is missing.
I was just another woman you dated.
Manipulated.
Fell for your lies.
Damn you took me on one hell of a ride.

I know now how dumb I was.
How blind I became.
But now I see,
I really see that you Never loved me.
It'll hurt for a little while.
And I'll be down for some time.
But I'll get back up again.
And be stronger then I was before.
Another life lesson learned.
Thanks for the class.
Your a horrible teacher.
That was a life lesson I didn't need to learn.

~Sparrow

All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2013

Time is Right

When the time is right I'll date again.
Hopefully find a man who can be 100% wit me.
Seem to be to much to be real these days.
But be real wit me & I'll be real wit you.
I'm the type of chic who's cool wit you chillin wit your boys.
Cuz I like to chill wit my girls & my babies.
I'm old fashioned, I like dates.
But I also like to shoot hoops, play video games, & dance.
Life is about livin' & havin' fun.
So all I expect is a man to have a lil time for me.
I need a man who's not worried bout my past & what I may of once did.
Only need him to be worryin bout the present & what happens in the future.
I don't worry bout people's pasts.
For your past does not define you.
But your future does.

When the time is right I'll date again.
But until then....
I'll be enjoying my life.
Livin' every day.
Smilin', laughin', & enjoying my time with my babies.
For there all I really need.
There love is truly enough for me <3

~Sparrow

All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2013

Far from Perfect

I'm fragile and broken.
A fallen angel from above,
Far from perfect.
I make mistakes and only human.
Only wanting to love and be loved back.
Only for just who I am.
Flaws and all.
I'm far from perfect.

These eyes have cried a thousand tears,
This body has felt a million blows and pain.
My heart is no longer whole.
I've known more pain then most.
Yet I'm still here trying to live.
Trying to love and be loved.
Wanting change and a different life.
I've let go and left the past in the past.

But yet no one thinks I haven't changed.
That I'm still the same.
There's a million scars seen and unseen.
I've live and I've learned.
It's all made me who I am today.
Far from perfect but I know I deserve to be loved to.

Soul aching, heart breaking, the unknown taking over.
Fragile and broken yes that's me.
But still standing tall and living with what's left of me.
May not be fully whole.
But I know when the right person comes along.
I'll finally be complete, healed, and freed of my inner misery.
Just wanting someone to love me for me.
Flaws and all.....
....Far from perfect... I'm only me....

~Sparrow~

All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2012

Had Enough

I'm done I've had enough.
The fighting, the yelling.
It's just all to much.
Every other day of every single week.
When will enough be enough??
No one should ever fight this much.
How can you call the arguing and fighting love?
This is not love.
Love does not make you cry ,
Nor look for places to hide.
It does not make you feel like you have to walk on egg shells,
Just to avoid possibly saying the wrong thing.

Than another argument breaks out.
It's a never ending cycle and now I'm clouded with doubt.
I want back how I once felt.
The love, the security, the dream of a future.
Only thing I see is dark and dim.
There's no light at the end of this tunnel.
Seems there's no end.

I'm done I've had enough.
There's no fight left in me.
I give up.
You win...that's it I surrender.
Standing here waving the white flag...

~Sparrow
All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez-Snowhawk and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2012

They Don't Know

Don't matter what others say.
It's all he said she said.
They makin' no sense.
Story after story.
Lie after another.
No one can be real and do nothing but talk smack.
Don't they know that no matter what they say you'll forever be my love, my man, my baby?

They think they know you.
But they a bunch of fools.
They don't know you like I do.
That smile; that laugh.
Hides a past of hurt and tears.
Fear after fear of never being loved for who you are.
Livin' life thinkin' your invisible.
But baby I see you.
Inside and out through and through.
Mind, body, soul.
Your more than the man they think you are.
Amazing, strong, intelligent, handsome.
So much rolled in one.
They just don't know you like I do.
Nor do they see the man you really are.
Someone always gonna hate.
Always gonna be jealous and talk shit.
But we above all that.
Can't ever be brought down to their level.

Baby your forever shinin' in my eyes.
Forever my numba one.
They just don't know you like I do.
So I'll let em hate and say what they say.
They just mad cuz you my man and I ain't lettin' go without a fight.
I was raised to fight for who and what you love.
And boo you mí amor,
The one who saw me when no one else didn't and I saw you.
My heart speaks to only you and you hear every word it says.
This is how I know it's true.
I'll never let go of you.

No matter what they say or do.
You'll always be my number one.
and I ain't lettin' go of you.
They just don't know you like I do.
A bunch of judgmental fools.

~Sparrow~

All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2012

One of a Kind

Every time I hear his voice it's music to my soul.
The very sight of him makes me smile with joy.
He approaches; his lips on mine and I forget how to breath.
He puts his hand on the back of my neck and our kisses intensify.
He wraps his arms around me and I feel right where I belong.
When he's near he brings a calmness to my soul.
Time just seems to stop and the world is at a stand still.
It's just me and him.
He makes me forget all the bad and chaos in my life.
With him there are always better days.
He never judges just keeps it real.
I tell him what's on my mind and he only gives me honest feedback.
He's one of a kind.
Not to many men like him exist.
He makes my life better.
Never negative like all the rest.
Since he came into my life.
I've been stress free and feel at complete ease.

He speaks to my soul and hears my heart.
No words have to be spoken for him to know what's on my mind.
He seems to know me better than I know myself.
How he does this I may never know.
But I'm grateful for him coming into my life.
Making it better, not worse.
Loving unconditionally, not with restriction.
He's one of a kind.
Every day I wake up grateful to be able to say he's mine.
All I can do is smile, look at him, and proudly say "Yes that's my man." ")
He's one of a kind.

~Sparrow~
7/23/12

All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2012

Never Again

As my heart turned to ice & my walls built up.
I closed my eyes & screamed as loud as I could.
The pain unbearable,
Even my soul was screaming.
Never again I told myself.
Never again will I love.
To much pain,
To much heartache,
To much blinded trust.
Broken time & time again.

As my walls stand tall & strong.
My heart as cold as ice.
My soul black as night.
I meet new guy after next.
Never really connecting.
Heck I never gave em a chance.

Then this one man came along.
Caught me off guard.
Never thought he'd be the one chipping away at my walls.
Every moment with him I feel the ice melt,
My soul slowly enters into the light.
And my walls start to crumble to the ground.
I fight so hard to keep everything intact.
I can't let love back in.

So I'll like him as much as I'm allowed before it gets to close to love.
Can't have love sneaking up on me like that.
He's a good man & I know I'm no good for him.
But I'll stay here & enjoy his company for as long as he allows me to.

Can't bare the pain of love no more.

~Sparrow~

All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2012

Forever Love.. Then Lost

Once upon a time I walked with broken wings.
A shatter heart & a lost soul.
The day I met you turned my whole world upside down.
No longer was I alone.
For I now had you to hold.

You found my soul & protected it,
You picked up every shattered piece of my heart & put it back together.
Then you gave me new wings to always be by your side.
You became my best friend, my lover, my future forever.

Then a cloud came over head & the rain began to pour.
Thunder rumbled & lightening flashed.
The next thing I knew my whole world had just crashed.

The one who fixed everything.
Shattered it all.
Ripped out my heart,
Lost my soul,
Then broke my wings.
Never to fly again.
As tears stream down my face,
My heart exploding in my chest.
The pain so unbearable I just want it to go away.
Burn my bad memories & remember the better days.

How could the one who said he'd never leave nor walk away.
Shatter my whole world & just walk away?
You have no idea the pain & sorrow you have left.
How can I pick back up & ever smile again?
My once in a lifetime love took himself away from me.
He seemed to not know how much it would kill me.
I've lost my best friend,
My other half.
The man that completed my dreams.
My soul.
The one I gave my heart to.
Brought my whole world crashing down.
Now there's a hole in my heart & in my soul.
I've never felt so alone.
I loved whole heartily,
Then I loss.

Now I walk upon this earth in a daze.
Wondering & not understanding how all this has happened to me.
Now I look up in the sky every day & night.
Praying to the gods above to bring my forever love back were he belongs.
Show him the way to a forever lasting love.
And I hope he comes back & never walks away again.
For if he ever did.
I'd never be same.
How could I ever live?

::A broken heart is hard to bare & live with. Every day is a test to inner strength. Every day it rains. So I cry in the rain so the world doesn't see my pain::

~Sparrow~

Copyright
All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2012

All a Lie

In the middle of the night as I laid upon your bare chest.
I cried tears of sorrow.
For I knew I was losing you.
You told me to stop crying that you'd never leave me.
That you love me and I'm what you want.

I should of known then what I know now.
It was all a lie.
You never loved me like I love you.
The pain I feel is so intense.
A dagger to my chest that you seem to push further & further into me.

I would never do you wrong.
I gave you my word I'd always stand by you.
You gave your word to.
But it seems that means nothing to you.

You never loved me like I love you.
All your words a lie, hugs & kisses to.
You just used me knowing damn well all the pain I've already been thru.
Did you ever care?
I don't believe you ever did.
Cuz in truth if you did.
Leaving me would be something you'd never be able to do.

In the end I'm the one left with a broken heart.
So done with love.
Not putting myself out there again.

~Sparrow~
All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2012

Forever Love

Forever Love

I love the way his eyes light up when he sees me.
All the love that he feels for me never has to be spoken.
Just look at him and you'll see.
The look in his eyes when he looks at me......
Speak volumes of emotions.
His love is pure devotion.
It isn't lust it's unconditional love.

I've never really believed in love at first sight.
Until the day he came into my life.
With just one look, a smile, and then he spoke.
The sound of his voice is like the theme song to my life.
He took my breath away and woke up my heart.
I've loved before but never like this.
He's like a magnet that my heart could not ignore.
My mind screamed stop you don't even know this man.
My heart yelled back "I know all I need to know."

I've followed my heart ever since and it has yet to lead me astray.
Some may think I'm crazy or even a fool.
But this fool is in love and I never want it to go away.
I've never really imagined a lifetime with someone.
Until I met Tim my absolute perfect love.
Perfect for me in every which way.
The world doesn't need to see it or even understand.
His my man and I'm his woman and that's all anyone needs to know.

Our life's,
Our love.
Only equal one.
Two hearts,
One soul.
Forever entwined.
Never letting go.

~Sparrow~
All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2012