Games & Lies

Time and time again lettin' my guard down.
Listening to words,
Ignoring actions.
I should know better by now.
But a hopeless romantic I am.
Wanting, waiting, thinking there is love out there for me.
Not even lookin' and they find me.
What do I have invisible ink on me?
A glowing sign that says....
Hurt me. Use me. Throw me to the side.??
Does it make them feel like a man to cause someone pain they don't even know?
Or is that it?
Because they don't know you they just don't care.

When you think you got it all figured out and your guard is up.
A smooth talkin' two timin' man comes along.
Makes you smile and feel amazing.
Least do you know they already taken.
Got a girl at home & you just the game they playin'.
Now your stuck not knowing where to begin or where to end.
Stay and keep doin' what your doin'.
Or try yet again with some other man who may or may not run a game on you to?
Are there any real men left?
Is it that hard to be real?
To be faithful to the chic you got?
To really love someone & mean the words comin' out your mouth?
Nowadays it's nuthin' to say baby I love you.
Don't say what you don't mean.
Don't run a game on some chic just cuz your ass is bored at home.
Be a real man & love the woman you have.
The one at home waitin' on you while your runnin' the streets.
The heart is a delicate organ that should not be played with.
The soul is strong but only for so long.
Don't walk into a woman's life knownin' your just gonna play her & run your game.
Stop and think.....
Would you want some man to treat you momma, sister, or daughter like that?
Treat a woman the way you would want a man to treat the women in your family.
It takes more then just words to really love someone.
Actions must follow those words.
So love; really love with all your heart & soul.
Respect the woman that stands by your side through thick and thin.
That's real love & no you won't find it some where else.
Don't go out hurtin' another woman just cuz you can.
You don't know her story or how many times the man before you hurt her.
Love, protect, & cherish what you love.
For one day you may wake up & it'll be gone.
Time flys by,
The clock is forever ticking.
Love unconditionally & without reserve.
Life's to short to play games & live a lie.

~Sparrow
All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez-Snowhawk and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2013

Late Nights

Late at night I try to close my eyes.
Sleep and rest; clear my mind.
Thoughts run wild,
Mind on full speed.
Looks like another night without sleep.
Everything crosses my mind.
And nothing makes sense.
Happy and content.
Life is good.
Only thing missing is a love to hold on to.
Share the good moments & even bad.
Cuddle, laugh, be silly with, have fun.
Not everything can be perfect.
This I know all to well.
But what's so wrong wanting to share my life with someone else?
Love is a beautiful thing.
And when it's right & true.
Nothing can come between the two.
Two hearts,
Two bodies.
Become one soul.
Love fills the empty holes.

Late night thoughts keep me wide awake.
Wish I knew why my mind refuses to rest.
A lil bit of sleep may calm these random moments of thought.
But then again I seldom sleep long.
Wanting someone to hold me tight.
Help me sleep through the night.
Late night wishes on stars unseen.
Certain dreams may never be.
This is life good & bad.
Always appreciate what you have.
Never dwell on what is missing.
For you never know when it'll be found.
And no longer will your life feel incomplete.

~Sparrow
All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez-Snowhawk and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2013

Enough is Enough

Whisky filled veins.
Numb as can be.
The memories still so vivid like it were just yesterday.
*Swing* *Punch* *Throw*
Down I go.
Fighting back the tears and the excruciating pain.
I can't understand why you keep hurting me.
Does it make you feel like a man to knock me down?
To see the tears in my eyes?

How's it make you feel when I get back up?
When I wipe the tears from my eyes and yell "I've had enough!"
Don't tell me your sorry when you're not.
Don't say it won't happen again.
When the next day comes and you strike me yet again.
Enough is enough.
I can't take your kind of love no more.

No longer will I be your punching bag.
No longer will I make excuses for why you do what you do.
Now you my so-called love can watch me walk away.
I never signed up for this.
I deserve better, security, love.

Real men don't strike their women.
They walk away, cool off, and come back to discuss things.
Enough is enough.
Now you can blame yourself for my absence.
You'll miss me but I won't be missin' you.
My life will go on.
While you live with the regrets of your actions.
Knowing you had a good woman and all you could do was abuse her.
You never appreciated what you had.
You became another lesson learned.

The bruises will fade.
The cuts will heal.
But the memory of what you put me through will always be strong.
I'll never go through that again.
I deserve nuthin' but the best.
A real man who loves unconditionally.
And will never strike me.
Enough is enough.
I won't ever settle for less than what I deserve.
I've seen good and I've seen evil.
It's left unseen scars on my heart and soul.
But yet I still believe deep down there is someone out there for me.
Who will love me for me.
No matter what.
Good days and bad always standing by me.
Now that's true love.
I'll never give up believing there's better for me.
I've had allot of wrongs.
But it takes just one right to make all the pain and hurt worth fighting through.

~Sparrow
All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2013

New Kind of Me

The pain is killing me.
The memories haunt me.
I can't cry or be upset.
For this is the path I've chosen.
To let go and move on.
Things weren't good.
Life was stressful and you raised your hand to me.
How could I ever let that go and just move on?
I couldn't get past the jealousy and you always bein' paranoid.
You kept judging me cuz of my past.
You never had no right to do that.
Trying to live and better my life.
Yet every day was a fight.
This is a brand new me and like hell will I let anyone hold me back.
To many years fighting for change.
Change begins within you and with you.
If your not with me your against me.
So get to steppin' out my life.
I don't need your kind of love and all that pain.
I'm a good woman and stronger than ever because of all the pain I've endured.
Trust is earned,
Love comes naturally and unconditionally.
There should never be a price on love.
I won't give up who I am.
Ever...Never..... Not for no one.
I'm a brand new kind of me.
Love me, be with me,
Hate me or against me.
I'm gonna do me and not worry bout you.
This is a new kind of Me.

~Sparrow

All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2013

Late Night...

I close my eyes & in the middle of the night I lay & wonder about my life.
Past, Present, Future.
Can't change the past.
You can only learn & grown.
The present is the here & now.
The future is still waiting to be written.
I constantly worry & wonder if I'm doing the right thing?
If I've made the right choices?
Am I on the right road?
I hate not knowing the answers.

My heart is constantly bleeding,
My soul seems to be in agony.
Tears stream down my face.
All the while I smile.
Smile to hide the pain,
Smile to let you know everything is okay.
I was made tough.
I can take any hit.
You'll never see the scars.
For the ink upon my body hides all my pain.
I just want someone to see my worth.
To see the love I can offer & just love me back.
But nowadays that's way to much to ask.
So gonna close my eyes & dream away.

~Sparrow

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All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2013

Take Care

What do you do when your damaged & broken?
And it feels like your heart is about to explode?
Your chest becomes heavy,
The tears fall like rain.
Can't catch your breath.
For the pain of your heart breaking is to much to bear.
You scream in agony.
Pray for the pain to go away.
Wish for the memories to fade.
You want so bad to go back to yesterday.
When all was good & not so sad.
You go over & over again in your head.
All the words he ever said.
Was it real?
Were they true?
Maybe it was all a lie & he never really loved you.
For if he did he wouldn't be able to just walk away.
He'd stop & fight & beg with all his might.
For you to stay; beg never to leave.
But he didn't.
All he said was Take Care.

Take care?
Okay..... I will.
I'll take care of this broken heart.
The words you lied.
Try to erase your memory.
Don't even want to remember yesterday.
You made me care,
You made me fall.
You caught me for a moment.
Then let me fall to the ground.
Got me feelin' like I'm in the depths of hell.
Once upon a time on cloud 9.
Only took a few words to fall from heaven.
Guess I wasn't your angel,
Guess you didn't change.
Nothing but lies.
I hate your face.

All the I love you's,
I miss you's,
I need you,
Your my life & you complete me.
If all were so true now how do you feel?
Do you feel like a part of you is missing?
Does your heart bleed as much as mine?
Do you lay awake missing me?
The answer to all these questions is NO!
No you don't miss me,
No your heart doesn't bleed,
And hell no do you feel like a part of you is missing.
I was just another woman you dated.
Manipulated.
Fell for your lies.
Damn you took me on one hell of a ride.

I know now how dumb I was.
How blind I became.
But now I see,
I really see that you Never loved me.
It'll hurt for a little while.
And I'll be down for some time.
But I'll get back up again.
And be stronger then I was before.
Another life lesson learned.
Thanks for the class.
Your a horrible teacher.
That was a life lesson I didn't need to learn.

~Sparrow

All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2013

Time is Right

When the time is right I'll date again.
Hopefully find a man who can be 100% wit me.
Seem to be to much to be real these days.
But be real wit me & I'll be real wit you.
I'm the type of chic who's cool wit you chillin wit your boys.
Cuz I like to chill wit my girls & my babies.
I'm old fashioned, I like dates.
But I also like to shoot hoops, play video games, & dance.
Life is about livin' & havin' fun.
So all I expect is a man to have a lil time for me.
I need a man who's not worried bout my past & what I may of once did.
Only need him to be worryin bout the present & what happens in the future.
I don't worry bout people's pasts.
For your past does not define you.
But your future does.

When the time is right I'll date again.
But until then....
I'll be enjoying my life.
Livin' every day.
Smilin', laughin', & enjoying my time with my babies.
For there all I really need.
There love is truly enough for me <3

~Sparrow

All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2013