Four Years

Every year that passes it doesn't get easier to deal with.
The tears still come as fast as the first day she passed away.
It never gets easier I just learn to hide the pain well.
The heart ache I feel every day of every week.
Is always there lingering over me.
I look at my oldest child & then my youngest and think how life would of been if Zenzi was never taken from us.
She'd be four now and running around.
Dancing through the house.
Her love for music was incredible.
I've never seen a baby love music as much as her besides her baby sister.

Those who don't know or understand my pain.
Say it'll be fine you'll be okay.
Some days I don't feel fine and some days it's not okay.
You just don't understand how bad I want my daughter back.
It isn't fair that she was taken from a good and loving home.
When other children are abused and neglected in other house holds.
I'll never understand this and I'll always be upset.
Don't tell me to let go and get over it.
I lost my baby,
My little girl.
I'll never be okay with the fact she's not here.
Four years later and it hurts just the same as the day I lost her.
Apart of me is missing and nothing can fill that void.
It'll always be apart of me until I pass on to another life.

::It doesn't seem like its been four years. I miss my daughter and everyday I wonder why and what kind of person she'd be::
RIP Zenzi Teganmarie Elizabeth
Mommy loves you and miss you so much.
Sunrise 12/22/07
Sunset 04/24/08