The Pain I've Known

I've spent over a decade loving you.
Heart on the floor;
Soul lost in the dark.
Tear stained cheeks,
And blood shot eyes.

I've known pain I never knew existed until the day you threw me to the side like an unwanted doll.
Back on that dark; dusty shelf waiting for your return.
Only to be short lived.

I've never felt so unwanted or unneeded in all my life.
Until the day you started treating me like an unwanted doll.
You seem to forget I'm human to.
I cry and feel pain.
Just cuz you don't see it or hear my cries.
Doesn't mean I'm not hurting.
I've begun slowly dying inside.
My heart has now become a shattered mess. With missing pieces and stitched all to hell.
My soul full of holes and broken promises.

Some days I had wished you just hit me or call me a name.
That kind of pain I've handled for a life time.
The unknowing and thrown to the side to wait for your return.
Is a pain I've never known until the day you left me in the cold.
You seemed to forget I'm human,
That I have a heart and soul to.
When I've told you I love you and no one else has ever compared.
I don't say it to get your attention for you to come and go as you please.
I say it so you know that my heart is yours.
Shattered and now broken what is left still holds onto hope to some day getting the chance to fully love you.

~Sparrow~
12/31/11 5am


All poetry and lyrics written and owned by Kelli Irene "Sparrow" Ramirez-Snowhawk and federally protected under the United States Copyright Act © 1998-2011